"Mine"

I feel the need to change my ways. Not really because I want to, but because I believe it will be noble and good if I do things differently. By now everyone knows how selfish I am with myself, my time, my space. You can have every dollar that I earn because that my friend, is replaceable. I am having a challenge to let go of some of “MY”. Let’s see how this goes.


I believe that we have a choice in life:

We can either enjoy our days as a Single Entity; whereby we do what we want, when we want; how we want to do it. Or we can relinquish some of the You for “we”. Either way you lose something, but I guess the gain should be the focus.

As I fought traffic and watched ambulances victoriously cram their large frames into tight freeway spaces to attend the needs of the citizen in accidents, I started to really wonder about the direction of my life. I always say that I’ve done everything that I wanted to do. But that isn’t so accurate. Don’t get me wrong I am proud of my accomplishments and State-side travels. But there are large things that I want to do. Maybe I need a “bucket list”. But I started wondering: What is it that Elizabeth really wants?? Not what people want me to want or think that I want…But what will satisfy me to the point of pure unadulterated bliss? I guess I need to think about it.

(Side Bar- I miss the Fantastic 4 Terribly. I miss our inside jokes. Our laughing. Our encouragement.)

I am struggling to find balance between work, family, friends and relationship. No matter what I do, it seems that someone is dissatisfied. Not that I am too concerned about what anyone has to say about my timing or how much time I allot per entity; but I am concerned about the fulfillment thereof. What I mean is..I want my time to be spent in meaningful situations. With meaningful people who will enhance my state of being. I can’t allow myself to be in negative or unnecessary stressful situations. I am going to really start weeding out certain facets of my life. I’ll never get this time back, so I must make the most of it.

Ahhhh it feels good to be grown. I don’t owe anyone any explanations. I can do what I want. I have nothing to prove to anyone. Finally, I could care less what people think of me. It just is, what it is. Period.

Let me leave you with something-
1. Treat your time as your most precious asset-Be quiet and careful when planning your day so that you are not all over the place exhausting yourself or the others around you.
2. Train your brain to think positively- Even if it sounds negatively, turn it around. Happiness is a choice. And by all means, don’t allow someone else to negatively affect you.
3. Love!! Remember love is kind and forgiving. Pick up the phone and call an old friend or family member that you haven’t connected with in a while. Even if you just tell them that you love them.