I don't know what this year holds for me and my loved ones, but I have this feeling that it's going to prove to be the best yet. I have been one of the most irresponsible, hard-headed, "I'll do it my way" people for soooo long. Sometime when you are smart, you think that YOU are the ONLY one who is smart and thus need not really pay attention to anyone else. I am not sure when the light bulb went off, I estimate just weeks before my 29th B-Day...but somewhere around September of 2008, I decided not to keep trying to reinvent the wheel because that was a waste of time. Then sometime thereafter I decided to follow my first God-Given mind...you know your spirit which is of the Life Source which tells you what you should and should not do. Now, I am working on two major things:
Consistency & Allowing Others to grow at their own pace
I am quite fortunate because I know quite a few really smart people. I mean these people are sharp and savvy. But, I see them far differently than they see themselves. I believe that I have a gift. The gift of seeing who the Lord created them to be. Thus, I push soooo hard to the point of annoyance and irritation. For example, My Honey is one of the sweetest people I know. But, in my opinion she doesn't utilize all of her potential. She is a scattered bag of ole grits some time and it makes me sooooooooooooooo ANGRY. Sometime I can see myself, sticking her in a pillow case, then inside of the dryer, then in the dishwasher and then in the microwave. I wish she would be patient and thorough and make plans so that we all knew what were doing. But IT DOESN'T happen this way. So lately because I have been so irritated with it, I have become a raggedy ole Bitch! All I do is complain. Sometime I try not to, but then I see something out of place and it sets me off. I seriously start to see Red and smoke and fire in my brain. Then the chain reaction begins. I go crazy. She goes crazy. Now we hate each other at least for 2-3 hours. So, because I have learned that I can't change anyone but me. I have decided that if Honey wants to take her jacket off, to sip a Capri Sun, then throw the Capri Sun out of the window wrapped in blanket...she can! I really don't give a damn. I love her and she is who she is. I can't expect to change her core or get her to speed up her growth. We are different and in two different places. End of the story.
I am learning, on a daily basis that some battles really aren't worth the struggle. I am also learning that just because I do something one way (and I really believe it's the right way, because I am ALWAYS right, even when I am wrong, it's best to believe that I am right) doesn't mean it's the ONLY way to do it.
So when I say it's going to be a great year. I mean it. My intimate circle is all on moving at warped speed to make personal changes to enhance the quality of their life. We are all working on being apart of the Upward-Mobility of life. I mean if you are just taking up space in this life, why even try? But if you are interested in tasting the goodness that life has to offer, all flavors, then we can be friends.
I have a great feeling about all of the beautiful things which are about to transpire. I mean what is there not to be happy about: I have Love (Someone who loves me for me and all that it comes with), I have Family (3 of the best sisters anyone can ask for, not to mention my fantastic Cousins "Geaux Saints"), I have some of the best friends ever, "The Fantastic Four", My Austin Girls, My Atlanta Girls and my "Knuck if you Buck Sistas". Life is great. I will do all that I can to ensure that it remains that way.
So let me leave you with this-
1. Know who you are, first and foremost.
2. Choose to be happy, even when the odds are against you.
3. Love people for who they are. Where they are. Why they are (But this is only possible if you love self first)
Peace!!
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