My heart is quite heavy today; and maybe even yesterday. I wish I didn't care about people, or that when my loved ones ached that it didn't bother me...but it does.
Love is total support and affirmation of self. (In my opinion) How can people say that they love someone and fail to love themselves? How can people justify being abused, having their quality of life shred to pieces all because of someone elses insecurities? I can only imagine how the Most High must feel when he sees the precious life forces entrusted with foolish people. At what point do we say "Enough is enough"..."I refuse to let anyone have control over my life force and my destiny"!!!?? I am confused and thoroughly disappointed in someone today. I am not angry with them, because I care for them entirely too much. I am sitting here recalling the physical abuse that I once endured. I recall the pain, embarrasment and total confusion which followed. Head bandaged, blood flowing, not a tear present because the pain was so severe, I believe I shut all the way down. I remember thinking "This is not the plan for my life" and I took the steps to rebuild my life-ALONE. Sometime we need to do a self check if we keep finding ourselves in certain positions...I mean what's the common denominator??
Why do I even care? I mean...you, obviously DO NOT. Have you ever been angry with yourself for caring about someone or something that kept rejecting your care??
I actually had more to say but this subject is so sensitive and so bothersome to who I am; that I must stop. Let me continue focusing on me and mine. At the end of the day, I am my Star Player and we, as in "I" have to be ready for the game of life.
Let me leave you with this-
You will never fully understand love, until you love yourself.
Forgiveness doesn't mean that you have to be stupid.
Our paths, are part spiritual and part physical, which means you have to do something to activate the powers that be!
Peace and Blessings Kings & Queens :)
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Monday, February 22, 2010
Falling isn't bad-It's when you REFUSE to get up that there becomes a problem!!
Why are people so scared to live outside themselves? Why does fear even exist? I mean the worst thing that can happen to us is death and when you live and believe outside of self...you know that the spirit can not be killed. Ugh, fear disgusts me. Intimidation makes me sick. The care of what someone thinks of us, drives me to insanity.
I guess it is time for the "new-new": (because more people are starting to read and follow my blogs, I have decided to give even less info)-
My Pal, who was secretly trying to escape the hysteria of her live-in chaos creator has secretly returned to the chaos. This matter burns me up; because I am watching my friend die, in spirit and in her body. The fire no longer burns; as she tries to save someone who can not be saved. Who will save her? No one at this point, sadly...for she has cried "wolf" too many times. Damn.
My good friend, was sleeping with an old friend. The old friend may be read too much into what was happening. I am sure my good friend could have provided a bit more information. Now he's moved on and for some reason I believe he is truly happy with this friend and I wish him God's best.
I actually just became exhausted writing all of the madness. In spite the "Grandmother falling", the "Household transition", "The not feeling appreciated in her new marriage", "The caring for her whole family with Part Time income", "The fake life, with her daughter plotting behind her back", "The one taking her job for granted in such rough times", and the laziness, incompetence and self pity parties which I have seen, attended and been apart of; I some how remain strong. My prayers are lifted for those who are not strong enough to reach the broad shoulders of God. I am softened on a daily basis as I continue to walk my path as so seen fit by the Most High. I am reminded of where I came from, and what I have seen. I will continue to grow, continue to bump my head, then learn what not to do and do my best to lead by example.
Let me leave you with this-
1. Never read into anything. It is, just what it is.
2. If you are hurt, admit that to yourself, and whoever hurt you-Then move on. It is apart of life. But you can't grow the new skin, until you rip the old off.
3. Do all you can for others, until you seem to be more concerned with their quality of life than they are. How can you make legs walk, when they don't even believe that they are legs? It's crazy (laughing as a I type this)
I guess it is time for the "new-new": (because more people are starting to read and follow my blogs, I have decided to give even less info)-
My Pal, who was secretly trying to escape the hysteria of her live-in chaos creator has secretly returned to the chaos. This matter burns me up; because I am watching my friend die, in spirit and in her body. The fire no longer burns; as she tries to save someone who can not be saved. Who will save her? No one at this point, sadly...for she has cried "wolf" too many times. Damn.
My good friend, was sleeping with an old friend. The old friend may be read too much into what was happening. I am sure my good friend could have provided a bit more information. Now he's moved on and for some reason I believe he is truly happy with this friend and I wish him God's best.
I actually just became exhausted writing all of the madness. In spite the "Grandmother falling", the "Household transition", "The not feeling appreciated in her new marriage", "The caring for her whole family with Part Time income", "The fake life, with her daughter plotting behind her back", "The one taking her job for granted in such rough times", and the laziness, incompetence and self pity parties which I have seen, attended and been apart of; I some how remain strong. My prayers are lifted for those who are not strong enough to reach the broad shoulders of God. I am softened on a daily basis as I continue to walk my path as so seen fit by the Most High. I am reminded of where I came from, and what I have seen. I will continue to grow, continue to bump my head, then learn what not to do and do my best to lead by example.
Let me leave you with this-
1. Never read into anything. It is, just what it is.
2. If you are hurt, admit that to yourself, and whoever hurt you-Then move on. It is apart of life. But you can't grow the new skin, until you rip the old off.
3. Do all you can for others, until you seem to be more concerned with their quality of life than they are. How can you make legs walk, when they don't even believe that they are legs? It's crazy (laughing as a I type this)
Friday, February 19, 2010
Expect Nothing
Good Morning Readers, Lovers, Family, Friends, Haters, Nosy Whores, Players, Bull Shitters....whatever and whoever you are, I hope I included you.
I am sitting here thinking about a few things. Of course all of my thoughts have a strong set of roots, but that isn't very important right now; plus those of you who really know me, will know exactly where this stems from.
Why do we say that we don't have any expectations, when deep down inside, we really do??
For example, if you are walking to the car door with full hands, and your Partner is there; you expect he/she to open the door for you, right? Or, you decide to "hook up" with someone, as a consenting adult and you later "catch feelings" inspite the agreement to remain platonic and the other party is not interested in your ideas for a relationship. What were you expecting?? Or, if you are in a romantic relationship and one of you works full time, and the other doesn't; the person who works full time, expects that the person at the home will at least maintain it, right? Or, if you and your Significant other are together and one of you needs some coins and are digging thru your pockets for the exact change, you would expect that Person two would offer to provide the change, Right??
Are these simply common courtesy's? Or, do we really expect them?
It is something to think about. I suugest that we really dig deep to find out what we expect in life, and if the situation doesn't allow such...it may be time to try something different. Or we can try to become open mental canvasses so that whatever happens, we are somewhat prepared and not disappointed.
Marinate on that for a bit!
Peace & Blessings Kings and Queens
I am sitting here thinking about a few things. Of course all of my thoughts have a strong set of roots, but that isn't very important right now; plus those of you who really know me, will know exactly where this stems from.
Why do we say that we don't have any expectations, when deep down inside, we really do??
For example, if you are walking to the car door with full hands, and your Partner is there; you expect he/she to open the door for you, right? Or, you decide to "hook up" with someone, as a consenting adult and you later "catch feelings" inspite the agreement to remain platonic and the other party is not interested in your ideas for a relationship. What were you expecting?? Or, if you are in a romantic relationship and one of you works full time, and the other doesn't; the person who works full time, expects that the person at the home will at least maintain it, right? Or, if you and your Significant other are together and one of you needs some coins and are digging thru your pockets for the exact change, you would expect that Person two would offer to provide the change, Right??
Are these simply common courtesy's? Or, do we really expect them?
It is something to think about. I suugest that we really dig deep to find out what we expect in life, and if the situation doesn't allow such...it may be time to try something different. Or we can try to become open mental canvasses so that whatever happens, we are somewhat prepared and not disappointed.
Marinate on that for a bit!
Peace & Blessings Kings and Queens
Thursday, February 18, 2010
Perfect Timing
I got a message from an old Pal today, completely out of the blue. She and I used to work together and she always had something kind to say. She would hug you or simply compliment whatever it was that you had on. She was a proactive and sweet person. Remembering her, places a smile on my face. (How will someone remember you?)
Moving along, she said that I had been on her mind for whatever reason and she knew what she had to do; so she "reached out" and said this:
"Never let anyone or anything take your joy away"
That was it. I read the message at least 5 times and wondered if perhaps I missed something. You know, there are times when things are so simple that we (I) complicate them. So I responded to the message and said "Good Morning. Did you mean to send that to me?" Within a matter of seconds she said "Yes, it was just for you. Elizabeth, there are bitter people in this world, some, sadly don't know it. I feel you are becoming one of those people. You used to be so upbeat, kind and "easy" and now you appear uptight and frustrated. If something is causing you that much grief, cut it out, completely. Your light is supposed to shine, not lack luster because of anything or anyone else. Find a way to get back to you. Find a way to recover the smile and keep it, even if someone misunderstands you, even if someone talks to you like trash, even if situations keep aligning causing you to second and third guess why you are, where you are. Smile".
The message, left me so overwhelmed with feeling that I could barely keep my composure. She was and is so right. I have allowed things which I have no control over to consume me and cause my light to dim.
I think I will try that smiling thing. Right now. It is so hard to smile, when you are as hard-headed as me and determined to feel whatever it is that you want to feel; but I believe that it was from God's own spirit that my old Pal sent me this message. Not to mention last night, in the shower, I sang an old Song called "I need a Word/Confirmation". I guess I got it and my soul rejoices.
I guess I will try again. I choose to be happy. I choose to think positively. I choose "me." I choose to smile.
Question- What have you done to enhance somebody's day?
Moving along, she said that I had been on her mind for whatever reason and she knew what she had to do; so she "reached out" and said this:
"Never let anyone or anything take your joy away"
That was it. I read the message at least 5 times and wondered if perhaps I missed something. You know, there are times when things are so simple that we (I) complicate them. So I responded to the message and said "Good Morning. Did you mean to send that to me?" Within a matter of seconds she said "Yes, it was just for you. Elizabeth, there are bitter people in this world, some, sadly don't know it. I feel you are becoming one of those people. You used to be so upbeat, kind and "easy" and now you appear uptight and frustrated. If something is causing you that much grief, cut it out, completely. Your light is supposed to shine, not lack luster because of anything or anyone else. Find a way to get back to you. Find a way to recover the smile and keep it, even if someone misunderstands you, even if someone talks to you like trash, even if situations keep aligning causing you to second and third guess why you are, where you are. Smile".
The message, left me so overwhelmed with feeling that I could barely keep my composure. She was and is so right. I have allowed things which I have no control over to consume me and cause my light to dim.
I think I will try that smiling thing. Right now. It is so hard to smile, when you are as hard-headed as me and determined to feel whatever it is that you want to feel; but I believe that it was from God's own spirit that my old Pal sent me this message. Not to mention last night, in the shower, I sang an old Song called "I need a Word/Confirmation". I guess I got it and my soul rejoices.
I guess I will try again. I choose to be happy. I choose to think positively. I choose "me." I choose to smile.
Question- What have you done to enhance somebody's day?
Evenly Yoked, even....
2 Corinthians 6:14 NIV
[ Do Not Be Yoked With Unbelievers ] Do not be yoked together with unbelievers. For what do righteousness and wickedness have in common? Or what fellowship can light have with darkness?
While I don't follow every single scripture based on my beliefs, but I am able to find truth in almost every historical and spritual book. We all agree that trying to reinvent the wheel is pointless, so why not read what someone said, back in the day?
In relationships: All Types (Romantic, Platonic, Employment, Biological, etc..) I believe that the parties involved MUST be "evenly yoked". Not just in the means shared above, but in word and in deed.
Some people feel that love is all you need to keep a relationship going. I disagree. It is the basis for the the foundation, but there must be something which binds the ties:
Maybe, you both are students
Maybe, you both like to take pictures
Maybe, you both like to do "odd jobs' around the house
Maybe, you both like to exercise
Maybe, you both love watching old movies
Of course you won't be exactly like anyone, nor should you expect them to be because we are all unique. But I assure you that relationships WILL NOT work "smoothly" if there are no common ties:
Person A believes in higher education, Person B hasn't compeleted High School.
Person A believes in waiting a while to address a matter so as not to say the wrong thing, Person B gets so angry that they MUST blurt out the first thing which comes to mind.
Person A likes things in their place, Person B, doesn't give a damn and will take things off or out of place and leave them there.
Person A likes to save money, while Person B will spend every dime.
Have you ever seen a situation, where an unevenly yoked group ever moves forward? Or does something substantial?
Don't worry I'll wait.
Let me leave you with this:
A person will only go as far as their imagination takes them. You can want someone to be better, but if they don't see themselves that way and make a decision to do better...your opinion, time and energy is wasted!!
[ Do Not Be Yoked With Unbelievers ] Do not be yoked together with unbelievers. For what do righteousness and wickedness have in common? Or what fellowship can light have with darkness?
While I don't follow every single scripture based on my beliefs, but I am able to find truth in almost every historical and spritual book. We all agree that trying to reinvent the wheel is pointless, so why not read what someone said, back in the day?
In relationships: All Types (Romantic, Platonic, Employment, Biological, etc..) I believe that the parties involved MUST be "evenly yoked". Not just in the means shared above, but in word and in deed.
Some people feel that love is all you need to keep a relationship going. I disagree. It is the basis for the the foundation, but there must be something which binds the ties:
Maybe, you both are students
Maybe, you both like to take pictures
Maybe, you both like to do "odd jobs' around the house
Maybe, you both like to exercise
Maybe, you both love watching old movies
Of course you won't be exactly like anyone, nor should you expect them to be because we are all unique. But I assure you that relationships WILL NOT work "smoothly" if there are no common ties:
Person A believes in higher education, Person B hasn't compeleted High School.
Person A believes in waiting a while to address a matter so as not to say the wrong thing, Person B gets so angry that they MUST blurt out the first thing which comes to mind.
Person A likes things in their place, Person B, doesn't give a damn and will take things off or out of place and leave them there.
Person A likes to save money, while Person B will spend every dime.
Have you ever seen a situation, where an unevenly yoked group ever moves forward? Or does something substantial?
Don't worry I'll wait.
Let me leave you with this:
A person will only go as far as their imagination takes them. You can want someone to be better, but if they don't see themselves that way and make a decision to do better...your opinion, time and energy is wasted!!
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Speechless
Today is a day of quiet and thought. Dear God, please keep me from being vindictive; so that I may move on.
Remember love is trust and trust is love.
Remember love is trust and trust is love.
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Swimming upstream...
I am having one of those days, where I wish that I had my own personal Cheerteam to help me get thru it all. I feel that no matter how hard I try, or no matter what I do, I am making no progress. I spoke to one of my Besties in NJ this morning via chat and she says that I have come along way. Of course that made me smile, being that she has known me at my absolute worst. But, why do I feel as though my growth has halted? I feel that when I take two steps forward something comes along to cause me to fall and trip.
Am I the only one who feels that way?
Let me keep praying, pressing on and trying to progress. It's all that I can do.
I am secretly praying that I learn whatever lesson I am supposed to learn so that I can move forward. I am getting quite frustrated at this junction.
Am I the only one who feels that way?
Let me keep praying, pressing on and trying to progress. It's all that I can do.
I am secretly praying that I learn whatever lesson I am supposed to learn so that I can move forward. I am getting quite frustrated at this junction.
Is there a such thing as a Love Rehab Program?
I think I will just start writing...I need to purge it all. Love, as my friend has so eloquently said before, is a drug. You keep doing it, for the high; no matter how low things get, the recollection of the "first high" keeps you going back for me. Insanity, YES and totally! I can almost stand outside of myself wanting to drag myself out of the chaos; but I; the "me" in me, simply won't go.
My Honey, is as sweet as they come. She is pure. She is smart. She is savvy. She is sexy. I am so attracted to her. I can hear her voice and get excited as I long to be near her. Her smell, her laugh, her funny faces, all have woo'd me in so tightly that I fear one day I won't be able to breathe. I have tasted love in so many formats, yet this one is different. I am not certain how, or why; nor do I care to really understand it. It just is. Just is.
My Honey and I are the same, expect she is me, 7 years ago. When she is passionate about something, she has to act immediately. Without caution or reason, or even fear of the consequence. She must do it. I remember being that way. I remember being that way and causing all sorts of havoc for self and the people around me. If I was hurt, you would know it. If I were angry, you would know it. I felt that I was just keeping it real. I thought I was just standing up for myself and what I believed in. As I grew, matured and watched older, more "balanced" people; I slowly learned that there was a time and place for everything. I used to drive everyone crazy. Then I would feel bad later and have to apologize. I remember thinking when I acted this way "If only someone would be patient with my mixed up ass, I could grow into a good wife". But that is a heavy load to bear and I never really expected anyone to be patient or grow with me. So, I have decided to be patient and kind and let my Honey grow.
Moving along, as I mentioned I started making changes in my processing and delivery of things as time progressed. In fact, I learned these few, yet powerful things:
1. You must select which battles require immediate attention. You simply can't fight them all. And certainly, not all of them at once.
2. When things are heated, sometime you need to be quiet and just sleep on it. Why run the risk of saying things that you can NEVER take back??
3. Love bears all things. (ALL THINGS)
Our relationship keeps taking jabs. It seems that we have great days, then not so great days follow more frequently than ever. A huge transition is under way. We are merging two totally different worlds. I thought that our love and respect for each other would make it easy. How wrong, I was!!
I have taken on a huge responsibility; because I choose to. I sincerly want the two people that God has strategically placed in my life. I want to love them. I want to nourish them. I want to be their primary support system. I have been called stupid. I have been told that it would be easier for me to bail out. Even my Honey sometime believes that I am "out to hurt her", because she feels stuck or not completely able to do all of the things that she wants. But, the bottom line is: I am where I am because I choose to be. I won't be made to feel stupid, or like I should pursue other options. I don't care who wants me, or suddenly shows interest; the grass is NEVER greener on the otherside. Everyone has drama. Not to mention, I am totally committed. I am standing my ground for once. I will fight for this relationship to work with everything that I have. Hopefully, the yuck and detriment has passed so that we can move forward.
I am secretly wondering if there is a Love Rehab program. It may be a good idea. Sunday, good ole V-day was a good day, but the night...well not so good. That night found a way to spew nastiness and discontent all into Monday morning, for not just me, but for two of my Pals. I must say that at the end of Monday, in spite hearing all of the horor stories, I was blessed to lay next to the one I love.
This is probably the hardest things that she and I have ever done. This is how we know that we must press on. In the words of John Legend "Love Hurts sometime when you do it right"...then he says to hold on because "Pleasure is on the other side".
Make this a great day Kings & Queens. Seriously, no matter what anyone says or does, make up your mind that this will be one of you best days yet.
Peace
My Honey, is as sweet as they come. She is pure. She is smart. She is savvy. She is sexy. I am so attracted to her. I can hear her voice and get excited as I long to be near her. Her smell, her laugh, her funny faces, all have woo'd me in so tightly that I fear one day I won't be able to breathe. I have tasted love in so many formats, yet this one is different. I am not certain how, or why; nor do I care to really understand it. It just is. Just is.
My Honey and I are the same, expect she is me, 7 years ago. When she is passionate about something, she has to act immediately. Without caution or reason, or even fear of the consequence. She must do it. I remember being that way. I remember being that way and causing all sorts of havoc for self and the people around me. If I was hurt, you would know it. If I were angry, you would know it. I felt that I was just keeping it real. I thought I was just standing up for myself and what I believed in. As I grew, matured and watched older, more "balanced" people; I slowly learned that there was a time and place for everything. I used to drive everyone crazy. Then I would feel bad later and have to apologize. I remember thinking when I acted this way "If only someone would be patient with my mixed up ass, I could grow into a good wife". But that is a heavy load to bear and I never really expected anyone to be patient or grow with me. So, I have decided to be patient and kind and let my Honey grow.
Moving along, as I mentioned I started making changes in my processing and delivery of things as time progressed. In fact, I learned these few, yet powerful things:
1. You must select which battles require immediate attention. You simply can't fight them all. And certainly, not all of them at once.
2. When things are heated, sometime you need to be quiet and just sleep on it. Why run the risk of saying things that you can NEVER take back??
3. Love bears all things. (ALL THINGS)
Our relationship keeps taking jabs. It seems that we have great days, then not so great days follow more frequently than ever. A huge transition is under way. We are merging two totally different worlds. I thought that our love and respect for each other would make it easy. How wrong, I was!!
I have taken on a huge responsibility; because I choose to. I sincerly want the two people that God has strategically placed in my life. I want to love them. I want to nourish them. I want to be their primary support system. I have been called stupid. I have been told that it would be easier for me to bail out. Even my Honey sometime believes that I am "out to hurt her", because she feels stuck or not completely able to do all of the things that she wants. But, the bottom line is: I am where I am because I choose to be. I won't be made to feel stupid, or like I should pursue other options. I don't care who wants me, or suddenly shows interest; the grass is NEVER greener on the otherside. Everyone has drama. Not to mention, I am totally committed. I am standing my ground for once. I will fight for this relationship to work with everything that I have. Hopefully, the yuck and detriment has passed so that we can move forward.
I am secretly wondering if there is a Love Rehab program. It may be a good idea. Sunday, good ole V-day was a good day, but the night...well not so good. That night found a way to spew nastiness and discontent all into Monday morning, for not just me, but for two of my Pals. I must say that at the end of Monday, in spite hearing all of the horor stories, I was blessed to lay next to the one I love.
This is probably the hardest things that she and I have ever done. This is how we know that we must press on. In the words of John Legend "Love Hurts sometime when you do it right"...then he says to hold on because "Pleasure is on the other side".
Make this a great day Kings & Queens. Seriously, no matter what anyone says or does, make up your mind that this will be one of you best days yet.
Peace
Sunday, February 14, 2010
The Why
I have received many emails and text messages with people asking me one question: Why do you put it all out there like that??
Many of you know me personally, and I have two simple answers:
1. I sincerly, positively, totally, triumphantly DON'T care what anyone thinks of me. I spent too much of my life doing that and it got me nowhere. If anything it left me trapped and resentful.
2. I was placed her to be a servant. To be a contributor to life as we know it. My stories and experiences are not all for me. Certainly I can reflect on my experiences, learn to make greater decisions, etc...but my words could have a positive affect on someone else. My stories may reaffirm someone so that they realize that they are NOT CRAZY or the only ones going thru: Heartbreak, Happiness, Deceit, Friendship Drama, Sexual Fears and questions.
So let me leave you with this: Be you. Because at the end of the day, your life is all you have. How are you living yours? And, how will your story read when you are no longer present in "this life"??
Selah
Many of you know me personally, and I have two simple answers:
1. I sincerly, positively, totally, triumphantly DON'T care what anyone thinks of me. I spent too much of my life doing that and it got me nowhere. If anything it left me trapped and resentful.
2. I was placed her to be a servant. To be a contributor to life as we know it. My stories and experiences are not all for me. Certainly I can reflect on my experiences, learn to make greater decisions, etc...but my words could have a positive affect on someone else. My stories may reaffirm someone so that they realize that they are NOT CRAZY or the only ones going thru: Heartbreak, Happiness, Deceit, Friendship Drama, Sexual Fears and questions.
So let me leave you with this: Be you. Because at the end of the day, your life is all you have. How are you living yours? And, how will your story read when you are no longer present in "this life"??
Selah
Valentines Day
The extent and measures that we go thru to prove to someone who should know who we are and where we stand.
I am ammused.
The high expectations, the dreams, the media, the history, the way it is...
I sit back and I wonder how much the mobile-flower shop has acquired over the last two days as people rush and jump to the punch to show someone that they love them soooooo much.
I digress.
My heart knows no boundaries.
I stand virtually empty.
Everything that I thought I knew seems to be null and void.
I have never ached so much before.
Flowers, last minute cards, none of that can undo what has been done.
I will smile.
I will roll with the punches.
I will act as though my mind operates way below my "means".
Once you had me so committed. I would have done anything for you. I had done anything for you.
Once, you were all I ever saw, dreamed of and thought of.
But, I brought the destruction in via words; and now I am being punished, disrespected and left for dead (in my heart).
The difference is, what I did was unintentional-You are purposely picking apart everything that we worked for. But you are not just hurting one; there are three.
Love and Trust are one.
Watch what you say and who you say it to. You never know who you may need. You never know who knows who.
But finally, real love conquers all.
Happy Valentines Day (But make sure that your PDA surpasses this day, or you will wake up unfulfilled and confused)
I am ammused.
The high expectations, the dreams, the media, the history, the way it is...
I sit back and I wonder how much the mobile-flower shop has acquired over the last two days as people rush and jump to the punch to show someone that they love them soooooo much.
I digress.
My heart knows no boundaries.
I stand virtually empty.
Everything that I thought I knew seems to be null and void.
I have never ached so much before.
Flowers, last minute cards, none of that can undo what has been done.
I will smile.
I will roll with the punches.
I will act as though my mind operates way below my "means".
Once you had me so committed. I would have done anything for you. I had done anything for you.
Once, you were all I ever saw, dreamed of and thought of.
But, I brought the destruction in via words; and now I am being punished, disrespected and left for dead (in my heart).
The difference is, what I did was unintentional-You are purposely picking apart everything that we worked for. But you are not just hurting one; there are three.
Love and Trust are one.
Watch what you say and who you say it to. You never know who you may need. You never know who knows who.
But finally, real love conquers all.
Happy Valentines Day (But make sure that your PDA surpasses this day, or you will wake up unfulfilled and confused)
Friday, February 12, 2010
Which way is up!!!??
Readers, I need to give a short disclaimer:
Many of the things I write may seem all the way "out there". In review it probably seems that I have a BIG Chemical Imbalance issue beyond repair. Now what I want to say to that is-You are Probably Right!! Now that you have wrapped your skull around that, read with caution, or at least an open mind.
I hurt someone that I deeply love and I am paying for it dearly now. Sadly, I don't even remember what I did. But hearing about it has managed to make my soul cringe and my heart beg for mercy. What is even more sad is how this incident made me see things for what they really are! Can you say 90 degree change overnight?? That's me. Singing: Lawd, I know I've been changed!! I love this person dearly and will spend the rest of my life showing them this fact.
One of my Pals is secretly planning a mission to abandon her "someone-not-so special" I hope that her plan works. I'd like to see the fire lit in her spirit infusing the warmth that used to be there.
One of my Pals wants to sleep wih another Pal. However Pal A is somewhat needy and Pal B has too much crap going on, so I pray to whichever God is working for me these days to NOT let that come to pass.
One of my Pals is dating a cuddly something. But we are not sure if they are REALLY dating. They haven't been on a real date yet. Everytime they are supposed to spend some alone time, he pulls a disappearing act. Just like the movie (or book). Then he stays missing, until "Rambunctious" puts him on a facebook blast or turns into a small wine dispenser within herself. But lately he is making more and more guest appearances. Ya know, like Urkel did on Family Matters. I pray he becomes a regular, and not like the little sister on the show who went upstairs and never comes down, for (RANT: For 23 years I waited for that girl to come down the staris. She. Never. Did).
One of my Pals had been dating a "questionable person" who took it upon himself to send me a "booty call invite" about an hour after he and my Pal left my house. Then ya'll he had the nerve to ask me to Bring a Bottle! WTH!? Are you kidding me? So I will take my hard earned money away from my household to buy a bottle to bring to your place to sleep with you?? Do you know who I am? You sackless-crabby patty! I am hurting for my friend though; because she cared(cares) for him. Who wants to find out that the object of your affection is a sleeze-bag from their close friend?? Not me said the Working Girl (but not in a nasty way) Why, in 2010 are dudes still trying to pull fast ones? You won't tear down this group of friends. We are real. We are united; and we don't give a _________!!!!
One person, who I thought was Pal; decided to create a romance with she and I in it as an item. What in THE hell? I never came at this chick that way. I am not attracted to her or her drama. Go-go Gadget Delete from everything. (Sidebar, I am notorious for cutting people all the way off. I will let you go in a NY minute if I feel that you will cause me or mine any harm)
Oh yeah, let me NOT forget that one of the sisters has been RX'd some shampoo for a skin condition which is causing her hair to fall out. She says she has to put tape on her work chair so the hair doesn't stick to her butt. I am processing all of this as I sit here in the office, watching the Blonde in front of my cry b/c her widdle boyfriend didn't want to see her this weekend, and use my scarf to cover the scratches on my neck from Sunday's INCIDENT. Surely this is NOT the Real World that I am living in. This same Sister now calls me "Lifetime Movie" when we speak...and I call her, affectionately "TLC Channel".
If I haven't learned anything else this week it is:
1. Don't sweat the small stuff
2. Have no expectations-Do all that you do out of the willingness and love in your heart.
3. If you mess up, say you are sorry. But that is not the end, you must show it; not once but over and over again until your new character's reference is sooo strong that it makes the old null and void.
4. If you choose to stay in a situation, you don't get to be resentful. You chose to stay, now you must work at it to make it WORK.
5. Love is more complicated than you can ever describe. It forces you so far out of yourself sometime that when you look back, sometime even you don't recognize you.
Be Well Kings and Queens :)
Many of the things I write may seem all the way "out there". In review it probably seems that I have a BIG Chemical Imbalance issue beyond repair. Now what I want to say to that is-You are Probably Right!! Now that you have wrapped your skull around that, read with caution, or at least an open mind.
I hurt someone that I deeply love and I am paying for it dearly now. Sadly, I don't even remember what I did. But hearing about it has managed to make my soul cringe and my heart beg for mercy. What is even more sad is how this incident made me see things for what they really are! Can you say 90 degree change overnight?? That's me. Singing: Lawd, I know I've been changed!! I love this person dearly and will spend the rest of my life showing them this fact.
One of my Pals is secretly planning a mission to abandon her "someone-not-so special" I hope that her plan works. I'd like to see the fire lit in her spirit infusing the warmth that used to be there.
One of my Pals wants to sleep wih another Pal. However Pal A is somewhat needy and Pal B has too much crap going on, so I pray to whichever God is working for me these days to NOT let that come to pass.
One of my Pals is dating a cuddly something. But we are not sure if they are REALLY dating. They haven't been on a real date yet. Everytime they are supposed to spend some alone time, he pulls a disappearing act. Just like the movie (or book). Then he stays missing, until "Rambunctious" puts him on a facebook blast or turns into a small wine dispenser within herself. But lately he is making more and more guest appearances. Ya know, like Urkel did on Family Matters. I pray he becomes a regular, and not like the little sister on the show who went upstairs and never comes down, for (RANT: For 23 years I waited for that girl to come down the staris. She. Never. Did).
One of my Pals had been dating a "questionable person" who took it upon himself to send me a "booty call invite" about an hour after he and my Pal left my house. Then ya'll he had the nerve to ask me to Bring a Bottle! WTH!? Are you kidding me? So I will take my hard earned money away from my household to buy a bottle to bring to your place to sleep with you?? Do you know who I am? You sackless-crabby patty! I am hurting for my friend though; because she cared(cares) for him. Who wants to find out that the object of your affection is a sleeze-bag from their close friend?? Not me said the Working Girl (but not in a nasty way) Why, in 2010 are dudes still trying to pull fast ones? You won't tear down this group of friends. We are real. We are united; and we don't give a _________!!!!
One person, who I thought was Pal; decided to create a romance with she and I in it as an item. What in THE hell? I never came at this chick that way. I am not attracted to her or her drama. Go-go Gadget Delete from everything. (Sidebar, I am notorious for cutting people all the way off. I will let you go in a NY minute if I feel that you will cause me or mine any harm)
Oh yeah, let me NOT forget that one of the sisters has been RX'd some shampoo for a skin condition which is causing her hair to fall out. She says she has to put tape on her work chair so the hair doesn't stick to her butt. I am processing all of this as I sit here in the office, watching the Blonde in front of my cry b/c her widdle boyfriend didn't want to see her this weekend, and use my scarf to cover the scratches on my neck from Sunday's INCIDENT. Surely this is NOT the Real World that I am living in. This same Sister now calls me "Lifetime Movie" when we speak...and I call her, affectionately "TLC Channel".
If I haven't learned anything else this week it is:
1. Don't sweat the small stuff
2. Have no expectations-Do all that you do out of the willingness and love in your heart.
3. If you mess up, say you are sorry. But that is not the end, you must show it; not once but over and over again until your new character's reference is sooo strong that it makes the old null and void.
4. If you choose to stay in a situation, you don't get to be resentful. You chose to stay, now you must work at it to make it WORK.
5. Love is more complicated than you can ever describe. It forces you so far out of yourself sometime that when you look back, sometime even you don't recognize you.
Be Well Kings and Queens :)
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
God if you are listening
Please, please give me peace. Last night, I prayed until I went to sleep; but you know that don't you? I call peace in my home and now abundant peace in my work. Please help me tuck away the existing frustrations and anger so that I don't reach over to my "Do-it-all" co-worker and beat her all in the back until her kidneys come out unto the ground. I am so sick of nosy, bossy, negative people. I am DEALING with TOOOOOOOO much to deal with extra shit at work. But Lord knows I must keep my job, and keep it in good standing, as my family depends on it.
In Jesus' Name,
Amen
In Jesus' Name,
Amen
.........because words some time just get in the way
I have sabbatoged one too many things. I am secretly wondering, what could possibly be so wrong with me, down deep that I could hurt people who genuinely love me? What cycle am I starting or continuing? I learned something new about myself. I don't like what I learned. Can we get a "redo" button please???
Pain fills my eyes. My body feels as though it is coming apart, limb by ailing limb. Even the people closest to me, don't know who I am right now. Neither do I.
This is one for the books. I am too embarrassed to utter another word.
Please Father Time and Mother of Love reach in and do your work. Keep me consistant. Keep me loyal and true. May her wounds be healed. May the trust be once again, sealed.
Amen
Pain fills my eyes. My body feels as though it is coming apart, limb by ailing limb. Even the people closest to me, don't know who I am right now. Neither do I.
This is one for the books. I am too embarrassed to utter another word.
Please Father Time and Mother of Love reach in and do your work. Keep me consistant. Keep me loyal and true. May her wounds be healed. May the trust be once again, sealed.
Amen
Friday, February 5, 2010
Change for a Dollar (or at least a Lizzie)
I don't know what this year holds for me and my loved ones, but I have this feeling that it's going to prove to be the best yet. I have been one of the most irresponsible, hard-headed, "I'll do it my way" people for soooo long. Sometime when you are smart, you think that YOU are the ONLY one who is smart and thus need not really pay attention to anyone else. I am not sure when the light bulb went off, I estimate just weeks before my 29th B-Day...but somewhere around September of 2008, I decided not to keep trying to reinvent the wheel because that was a waste of time. Then sometime thereafter I decided to follow my first God-Given mind...you know your spirit which is of the Life Source which tells you what you should and should not do. Now, I am working on two major things:
Consistency & Allowing Others to grow at their own pace
I am quite fortunate because I know quite a few really smart people. I mean these people are sharp and savvy. But, I see them far differently than they see themselves. I believe that I have a gift. The gift of seeing who the Lord created them to be. Thus, I push soooo hard to the point of annoyance and irritation. For example, My Honey is one of the sweetest people I know. But, in my opinion she doesn't utilize all of her potential. She is a scattered bag of ole grits some time and it makes me sooooooooooooooo ANGRY. Sometime I can see myself, sticking her in a pillow case, then inside of the dryer, then in the dishwasher and then in the microwave. I wish she would be patient and thorough and make plans so that we all knew what were doing. But IT DOESN'T happen this way. So lately because I have been so irritated with it, I have become a raggedy ole Bitch! All I do is complain. Sometime I try not to, but then I see something out of place and it sets me off. I seriously start to see Red and smoke and fire in my brain. Then the chain reaction begins. I go crazy. She goes crazy. Now we hate each other at least for 2-3 hours. So, because I have learned that I can't change anyone but me. I have decided that if Honey wants to take her jacket off, to sip a Capri Sun, then throw the Capri Sun out of the window wrapped in blanket...she can! I really don't give a damn. I love her and she is who she is. I can't expect to change her core or get her to speed up her growth. We are different and in two different places. End of the story.
I am learning, on a daily basis that some battles really aren't worth the struggle. I am also learning that just because I do something one way (and I really believe it's the right way, because I am ALWAYS right, even when I am wrong, it's best to believe that I am right) doesn't mean it's the ONLY way to do it.
So when I say it's going to be a great year. I mean it. My intimate circle is all on moving at warped speed to make personal changes to enhance the quality of their life. We are all working on being apart of the Upward-Mobility of life. I mean if you are just taking up space in this life, why even try? But if you are interested in tasting the goodness that life has to offer, all flavors, then we can be friends.
I have a great feeling about all of the beautiful things which are about to transpire. I mean what is there not to be happy about: I have Love (Someone who loves me for me and all that it comes with), I have Family (3 of the best sisters anyone can ask for, not to mention my fantastic Cousins "Geaux Saints"), I have some of the best friends ever, "The Fantastic Four", My Austin Girls, My Atlanta Girls and my "Knuck if you Buck Sistas". Life is great. I will do all that I can to ensure that it remains that way.
So let me leave you with this-
1. Know who you are, first and foremost.
2. Choose to be happy, even when the odds are against you.
3. Love people for who they are. Where they are. Why they are (But this is only possible if you love self first)
Peace!!
Consistency & Allowing Others to grow at their own pace
I am quite fortunate because I know quite a few really smart people. I mean these people are sharp and savvy. But, I see them far differently than they see themselves. I believe that I have a gift. The gift of seeing who the Lord created them to be. Thus, I push soooo hard to the point of annoyance and irritation. For example, My Honey is one of the sweetest people I know. But, in my opinion she doesn't utilize all of her potential. She is a scattered bag of ole grits some time and it makes me sooooooooooooooo ANGRY. Sometime I can see myself, sticking her in a pillow case, then inside of the dryer, then in the dishwasher and then in the microwave. I wish she would be patient and thorough and make plans so that we all knew what were doing. But IT DOESN'T happen this way. So lately because I have been so irritated with it, I have become a raggedy ole Bitch! All I do is complain. Sometime I try not to, but then I see something out of place and it sets me off. I seriously start to see Red and smoke and fire in my brain. Then the chain reaction begins. I go crazy. She goes crazy. Now we hate each other at least for 2-3 hours. So, because I have learned that I can't change anyone but me. I have decided that if Honey wants to take her jacket off, to sip a Capri Sun, then throw the Capri Sun out of the window wrapped in blanket...she can! I really don't give a damn. I love her and she is who she is. I can't expect to change her core or get her to speed up her growth. We are different and in two different places. End of the story.
I am learning, on a daily basis that some battles really aren't worth the struggle. I am also learning that just because I do something one way (and I really believe it's the right way, because I am ALWAYS right, even when I am wrong, it's best to believe that I am right) doesn't mean it's the ONLY way to do it.
So when I say it's going to be a great year. I mean it. My intimate circle is all on moving at warped speed to make personal changes to enhance the quality of their life. We are all working on being apart of the Upward-Mobility of life. I mean if you are just taking up space in this life, why even try? But if you are interested in tasting the goodness that life has to offer, all flavors, then we can be friends.
I have a great feeling about all of the beautiful things which are about to transpire. I mean what is there not to be happy about: I have Love (Someone who loves me for me and all that it comes with), I have Family (3 of the best sisters anyone can ask for, not to mention my fantastic Cousins "Geaux Saints"), I have some of the best friends ever, "The Fantastic Four", My Austin Girls, My Atlanta Girls and my "Knuck if you Buck Sistas". Life is great. I will do all that I can to ensure that it remains that way.
So let me leave you with this-
1. Know who you are, first and foremost.
2. Choose to be happy, even when the odds are against you.
3. Love people for who they are. Where they are. Why they are (But this is only possible if you love self first)
Peace!!
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
Don't blame me for your 'lack"
We all make choices in this world. You are where you are because of choices you made. I am where I am because of the same thing.
I am reminded that just because someone turns 18, hardly qualifies them for an adult pass. Adults, stand on their own two feet. They deal with their own shit. They speak up for themselves. They find what they want and show no fear in attaining it. They handle their business. Point blank.
We all need help from time to time, but don't "ef" your stuff up and then get mad when I lack the interest or the time to fix it for you!!! UGH
If the boot fits wear it!!
Now back to my regularly scheduled program- I think I need to step outside for a while and breathe in some of this highly polluted Houston/Pasadena air...(chanting what's my motivation? what's my motivation?)
Peace-Peace-Peace
I am reminded that just because someone turns 18, hardly qualifies them for an adult pass. Adults, stand on their own two feet. They deal with their own shit. They speak up for themselves. They find what they want and show no fear in attaining it. They handle their business. Point blank.
We all need help from time to time, but don't "ef" your stuff up and then get mad when I lack the interest or the time to fix it for you!!! UGH
If the boot fits wear it!!
Now back to my regularly scheduled program- I think I need to step outside for a while and breathe in some of this highly polluted Houston/Pasadena air...(chanting what's my motivation? what's my motivation?)
Peace-Peace-Peace
"Mine"
I feel the need to change my ways. Not really because I want to, but because I believe it will be noble and good if I do things differently. By now everyone knows how selfish I am with myself, my time, my space. You can have every dollar that I earn because that my friend, is replaceable. I am having a challenge to let go of some of “MY”. Let’s see how this goes.
I believe that we have a choice in life:
We can either enjoy our days as a Single Entity; whereby we do what we want, when we want; how we want to do it. Or we can relinquish some of the You for “we”. Either way you lose something, but I guess the gain should be the focus.
As I fought traffic and watched ambulances victoriously cram their large frames into tight freeway spaces to attend the needs of the citizen in accidents, I started to really wonder about the direction of my life. I always say that I’ve done everything that I wanted to do. But that isn’t so accurate. Don’t get me wrong I am proud of my accomplishments and State-side travels. But there are large things that I want to do. Maybe I need a “bucket list”. But I started wondering: What is it that Elizabeth really wants?? Not what people want me to want or think that I want…But what will satisfy me to the point of pure unadulterated bliss? I guess I need to think about it.
(Side Bar- I miss the Fantastic 4 Terribly. I miss our inside jokes. Our laughing. Our encouragement.)
I am struggling to find balance between work, family, friends and relationship. No matter what I do, it seems that someone is dissatisfied. Not that I am too concerned about what anyone has to say about my timing or how much time I allot per entity; but I am concerned about the fulfillment thereof. What I mean is..I want my time to be spent in meaningful situations. With meaningful people who will enhance my state of being. I can’t allow myself to be in negative or unnecessary stressful situations. I am going to really start weeding out certain facets of my life. I’ll never get this time back, so I must make the most of it.
Ahhhh it feels good to be grown. I don’t owe anyone any explanations. I can do what I want. I have nothing to prove to anyone. Finally, I could care less what people think of me. It just is, what it is. Period.
Let me leave you with something-
1. Treat your time as your most precious asset-Be quiet and careful when planning your day so that you are not all over the place exhausting yourself or the others around you.
2. Train your brain to think positively- Even if it sounds negatively, turn it around. Happiness is a choice. And by all means, don’t allow someone else to negatively affect you.
3. Love!! Remember love is kind and forgiving. Pick up the phone and call an old friend or family member that you haven’t connected with in a while. Even if you just tell them that you love them.
I believe that we have a choice in life:
We can either enjoy our days as a Single Entity; whereby we do what we want, when we want; how we want to do it. Or we can relinquish some of the You for “we”. Either way you lose something, but I guess the gain should be the focus.
As I fought traffic and watched ambulances victoriously cram their large frames into tight freeway spaces to attend the needs of the citizen in accidents, I started to really wonder about the direction of my life. I always say that I’ve done everything that I wanted to do. But that isn’t so accurate. Don’t get me wrong I am proud of my accomplishments and State-side travels. But there are large things that I want to do. Maybe I need a “bucket list”. But I started wondering: What is it that Elizabeth really wants?? Not what people want me to want or think that I want…But what will satisfy me to the point of pure unadulterated bliss? I guess I need to think about it.
(Side Bar- I miss the Fantastic 4 Terribly. I miss our inside jokes. Our laughing. Our encouragement.)
I am struggling to find balance between work, family, friends and relationship. No matter what I do, it seems that someone is dissatisfied. Not that I am too concerned about what anyone has to say about my timing or how much time I allot per entity; but I am concerned about the fulfillment thereof. What I mean is..I want my time to be spent in meaningful situations. With meaningful people who will enhance my state of being. I can’t allow myself to be in negative or unnecessary stressful situations. I am going to really start weeding out certain facets of my life. I’ll never get this time back, so I must make the most of it.
Ahhhh it feels good to be grown. I don’t owe anyone any explanations. I can do what I want. I have nothing to prove to anyone. Finally, I could care less what people think of me. It just is, what it is. Period.
Let me leave you with something-
1. Treat your time as your most precious asset-Be quiet and careful when planning your day so that you are not all over the place exhausting yourself or the others around you.
2. Train your brain to think positively- Even if it sounds negatively, turn it around. Happiness is a choice. And by all means, don’t allow someone else to negatively affect you.
3. Love!! Remember love is kind and forgiving. Pick up the phone and call an old friend or family member that you haven’t connected with in a while. Even if you just tell them that you love them.
Monday, February 1, 2010
Round for a Reason
This world is an interesting place. It is just as simple as it is complicated. I always say that it is no coincidence that the world as we know it, is round. It reminds me of just how connected we all are. What we put out, must return to us. It's fact, almost just as what goes up, must come down!! I am always fascinated when I hear of people who are totally surprised by various things happening in their lives. I sit and think "You, or your Parents or someone before you, in your direct lineage sowed that seed; and it has to come to fruition or this world and the principles thereof is a lie."
Now, I don't mean to offend anyone by what I am about to say...but it is my damn blog and I am exercising my First Amendment Right. I want to discuss Religion. The principles of Sowing and Reaping, the Spiritual Laws which pertain to our physical-round world and Religion all seem to be tied. Ever notice that?
I believe in God. I may not call He/She by the name that you use simple because history and religion has been watered down so much over the years that there is NO way for me to personally know if anything that I've read regarding the most high is true or applicable. Don't believe me? Do your research...King James was an intricate man. He was also an egotistical man (per history) which required everything to go his way in order to not appear stupid or powerless. If you believed something different than he or challenged him, you would die. Just-like-that. He named a bible after him and had his best scholars write it (transcribe it). Human eyes, no spell check, no scanners to ensure word for precious word was being preserved. Just Human eyes under the instruction of a powerful man who ran an empire. I am not trying to put ideas in any one's mind. I just want you to think for a moment. Get out of your Bible-Belt Box and use the brain that God gave you. From the King James version, some 400 years later came your New World Translation, New Kings James, Living Bible, Amplified Bible, etc...Still think that the words are perfectly pure? Let's go back even further to the days of Constantine- Some 300 years after the Death of who we believe to be Christ Jesus; he sits at a table with other Higher-Ups and they DECIDE which writings will form the Bible as we know it. Look a link is attached to get your blood boiling some more. My point is, believe what you will....but know that Spirituality is higher than Religion (practices). God is real. There is a Higher Level of Intelligence out there who gave birth to life as we know it. It is just the order of things. I believe that we praise him with works, deeds not just words. Who cares that you sing in the Choir? Who cares that you never miss a Sunday at Church? Who cares that you can name all 66 books of the bible? Who cares that you understand the role of The Father, Son and Holy Spirit? When you are dead and gone, all that will live on is your works. The footprints that you left on the earth so that when it all comes full circle you would have been apart of the rebirth of endless life. The bible even says "The letter killeth, but the spirit taketh away" and Jesus said that the Pharisees were making his Fathers purpose null and void with their traditions. What is the point? Word and tradition is cool, but the spirit of a man is what God sees, recognizes and judges. You can fool people, but your life can not fool the Life source.
I wish people would get off their high horses and think for themselves. Religions which don't truly embrace a personal relationship with God scare me. Anytime one Man or Woman can stand in front of a body of people and can command them one way or another like mindless sheep scares me. It is, in my opinion ignorant and fruitless.
So in the words taken from the book of Joshua "Choose for yourself today whom ye will serve"!! Seriously, this is your life, you better start living it like everyday really counts; because it really does!!
Now, I don't mean to offend anyone by what I am about to say...but it is my damn blog and I am exercising my First Amendment Right. I want to discuss Religion. The principles of Sowing and Reaping, the Spiritual Laws which pertain to our physical-round world and Religion all seem to be tied. Ever notice that?
I believe in God. I may not call He/She by the name that you use simple because history and religion has been watered down so much over the years that there is NO way for me to personally know if anything that I've read regarding the most high is true or applicable. Don't believe me? Do your research...King James was an intricate man. He was also an egotistical man (per history) which required everything to go his way in order to not appear stupid or powerless. If you believed something different than he or challenged him, you would die. Just-like-that. He named a bible after him and had his best scholars write it (transcribe it). Human eyes, no spell check, no scanners to ensure word for precious word was being preserved. Just Human eyes under the instruction of a powerful man who ran an empire. I am not trying to put ideas in any one's mind. I just want you to think for a moment. Get out of your Bible-Belt Box and use the brain that God gave you. From the King James version, some 400 years later came your New World Translation, New Kings James, Living Bible, Amplified Bible, etc...Still think that the words are perfectly pure? Let's go back even further to the days of Constantine- Some 300 years after the Death of who we believe to be Christ Jesus; he sits at a table with other Higher-Ups and they DECIDE which writings will form the Bible as we know it. Look a link is attached to get your blood boiling some more. My point is, believe what you will....but know that Spirituality is higher than Religion (practices). God is real. There is a Higher Level of Intelligence out there who gave birth to life as we know it. It is just the order of things. I believe that we praise him with works, deeds not just words. Who cares that you sing in the Choir? Who cares that you never miss a Sunday at Church? Who cares that you can name all 66 books of the bible? Who cares that you understand the role of The Father, Son and Holy Spirit? When you are dead and gone, all that will live on is your works. The footprints that you left on the earth so that when it all comes full circle you would have been apart of the rebirth of endless life. The bible even says "The letter killeth, but the spirit taketh away" and Jesus said that the Pharisees were making his Fathers purpose null and void with their traditions. What is the point? Word and tradition is cool, but the spirit of a man is what God sees, recognizes and judges. You can fool people, but your life can not fool the Life source.
I wish people would get off their high horses and think for themselves. Religions which don't truly embrace a personal relationship with God scare me. Anytime one Man or Woman can stand in front of a body of people and can command them one way or another like mindless sheep scares me. It is, in my opinion ignorant and fruitless.
So in the words taken from the book of Joshua "Choose for yourself today whom ye will serve"!! Seriously, this is your life, you better start living it like everyday really counts; because it really does!!
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