Falling isn't bad-It's when you REFUSE to get up that there becomes a problem!!

Why are people so scared to live outside themselves? Why does fear even exist? I mean the worst thing that can happen to us is death and when you live and believe outside of self...you know that the spirit can not be killed. Ugh, fear disgusts me. Intimidation makes me sick. The care of what someone thinks of us, drives me to insanity.

I guess it is time for the "new-new": (because more people are starting to read and follow my blogs, I have decided to give even less info)-

My Pal, who was secretly trying to escape the hysteria of her live-in chaos creator has secretly returned to the chaos. This matter burns me up; because I am watching my friend die, in spirit and in her body. The fire no longer burns; as she tries to save someone who can not be saved. Who will save her? No one at this point, sadly...for she has cried "wolf" too many times. Damn.


My good friend, was sleeping with an old friend. The old friend may be read too much into what was happening. I am sure my good friend could have provided a bit more information. Now he's moved on and for some reason I believe he is truly happy with this friend and I wish him God's best.


I actually just became exhausted writing all of the madness. In spite the "Grandmother falling", the "Household transition", "The not feeling appreciated in her new marriage", "The caring for her whole family with Part Time income", "The fake life, with her daughter plotting behind her back", "The one taking her job for granted in such rough times", and the laziness, incompetence and self pity parties which I have seen, attended and been apart of; I some how remain strong. My prayers are lifted for those who are not strong enough to reach the broad shoulders of God. I am softened on a daily basis as I continue to walk my path as so seen fit by the Most High. I am reminded of where I came from, and what I have seen. I will continue to grow, continue to bump my head, then learn what not to do and do my best to lead by example.

Let me leave you with this-
1. Never read into anything. It is, just what it is.
2. If you are hurt, admit that to yourself, and whoever hurt you-Then move on. It is apart of life. But you can't grow the new skin, until you rip the old off.
3. Do all you can for others, until you seem to be more concerned with their quality of life than they are. How can you make legs walk, when they don't even believe that they are legs? It's crazy (laughing as a I type this)