Let's Just Clear the Air before 2010

Now, I am certain that I may look back on this posting and wonder WTH??!! But, all I can do is live for today, because this is all which is certain for now. Most people know me as a kind, upbeat and cool person. I don't get involved with mess. You will find me on the bottom of a "gossip list", and I am pretty open with how I am feeling. So if anyone EVER says that Elizabeth Goree started some "ish" they are straight lying because, by nature I am a "reactor". Sometime this is a good thing, and more times than I'd like to admit, it is very BAD. Very Bad. Sooooo, I am going to break out of the "biblical shell" that my Parents draped me with as a Baby and say what I really feel. Oh and if you don't like what I am saying, please, in Jesus' Mighty Name, change the channel. I will not cry or pass out if you don't read or comprehend what I am saying/feeling. I truly don't care! Here we go:

To all of you who have had an issue with me and lacked the "balls" to come forward and bring it to my attention-You have really ruined a good relationship. I will toot my own horn and say that it will be hard to find someone as supporting and understanding as I. When I am in your corner, I am in it. No doubt. I don't share my heart and my innermost workings so easily and if you betrayed that, do to fear, misunderstandings or straight cowardness; just know YOU DID IT. I tried and I am officially throwing in the towel and leaving it in 2009. I am not angry and I do understand that YOU may have other things happening in your life which require more attention, just know that people find time to nurture what is important to them. Guess, I wasn't that important.

To all of the judgmental people who have spoken out of term and tried to pretend that YOU do not live in a "double life-glass house"....actually, enough said. I will just sit back and watch, I may even crack a giggle or three. Sorry, nice Liz doesn't exist right now.

To all of the people who depended on me to tell them what to do, how to do it, where to go and how to go....consider this the delinquent power bill and I am pulling the plug. Love don't live here anymore.

Now, to all of the kind, supportive, honest and REAL people either that I've met this year or continued to grow with this year, I appreciate you. YOU know who you are, because our lines of communication are NEVER severed, no matter what is happening.

I have made many half thought choices in my life. Hence the fast downward spiral of financial yuck that I have been dealing with. I have said somethings out of hurt and anger, and for that "tone" and only the "tone"; I am sorry. Sincerly. But, I am moving forward. I have forgiven myself and others. But just because I am exercising my forgiveness option does not mean I will forget or that things will be the same. This quiet time has shown me a whole lot; and I am thankful for it. My goal is to be the best me that I can be.

I, remind me of a Huge Dam. Ya know, the kind that holds a large body of water back. I was designed to be strong. I was designed to withstand most things. But even the strongest "Dams" if picked at, tried and abused it will slowly begin to crumble, little by trickling little. Then one day, and without warning (OOOh this is so me) the waters have no choice but to plunge out from behind the Dam. And the water is seperated, parted in so many different directions so that it can never, ever be completely collected again. It's nature. I feel the crumble coming in my structure....I hope that my strength will endure this test, because if I move in varied directions it will NEVER be the same.

TAAA-DAAA

So let me leave you with some "not so nice" but REAL as can be tidbits before I go:

1. If you can not take it-don't do it!!! I can do it soooooooooooooooo much better. And guess what? When I do it, it will be deliberate, calculated, well planned to ensure maximum PAIN and agony.

2. Hahahahahaha there is no Number Two. Just the one.

3. I told you, no number two, so why would you think there was a Number three. Get it together grouch

Peace and Blessings......Nah scratch that...Reciprocity and Redemption!!