It was a typical Friday at work. The ladies and I were trying to complete various tasks. I was busy working, but my mind was torn in a million different directions. I was still pissed from the night before. The night that I managed to clean the entire home, cook dinner and still take time with the two year old all in a matter of two hours. The anger started on the inside of me and grew until I could hear it speaking in my body. I couldn't figure out how I could accomplish all of that and "The Honey" NEVER even seems to come close to such an accomplishment. I know that I shouldn't compare, but we all do it. I have been told by her that, I don't hold a candle to some of the people in her past when it comes to certain things. We all have our strengths and weaknesses, but, I am one of those ambitious "doers" I don't have to be asked to do anything, if it needs to be done, I simply DO IT. But whatever, we're all soooooo different, RIGHT? In the midset of my angst, I messaged "Barbie Doll" and asked her if she wanted to do lunch. She lives in walking distance from my "Slave Field" also known as Work. We went to a charming little place, that I've passed for months now. I enjoyed the best Shrimp and Crawfish Etoufee that I have ever tasted. Every single bite, sip, slurp was so flavorful and delicious. Yummo. The Barbie Doll and I discussed relationships and their ups and downs. We discussed how it feels to carry the weight of it all. We discussed how some people woo you and do everything seemingly perfect just to get you and once they have you "situations seem to change". It is interesting how these things always happen. But I digress. By the end of the lunch, I had a smile on my face; at least a feaux (tee-hee) smile that did the trick. My friend would not allow me to see the bill, or even come close to it. What a wonderful time that was. I felt like I was on a real lunch date. How I miss those.
Fast Forward, back to work. The frustrations were running high as a door. The "Blonde" as usual wasn't carrying her share of the burden and making a ton of excuses for it. It was always because of this or that, that she was unable to get the job done. I hate people with a million EFFIN excuses. Please save it and just "get er done". I have just as much on my plate as most people, if not more and I get the job done.
We watched her leave the office one hour early because she stayed an extra hour the day before. WOW, we are salaried and it was one day. What happened to being a team player? People and their half ass attempts piss me off. REALLY, PISS ME OFF. Fast forward, the day ended in a successful way for me. I accomplished some really awesome things and got started on some of my new work tasks with the Contracts, etc..
On the drive home, 1.5 hours on this day. "Barbie Doll" followed behind me, because we had to prepare for "The Honey's" lil' get together. The drive was stressful and tiring. More than usual. Probably because I only got 2 hours of sleep the night before. We arrived home, liquor in hand, ready to get it poppin'. Only a handfull of people arrived as time progressed holding more liquor. Eventually, we were lifted and twisted. Time seemed to pass with grace. Laughs, shows and BS started to occur. As usual, the night went into the a.m. I ended up passing out to sleep; as I usualy do. Operation "Get together success".
As I think about this past week and this weekend, I have no choice but to smile. I know, that God has positioned me right where I need to be for this time in my life. I know that I supposed to learn about Money Management and Patience; but sometime I wish I could take the easy way out, like I used to do. This is hard!! But I know that there is value in every experience and this one is just refining me, and preparing me for the wonder that is in store for me.
lizzy u r truly an inspiration to me. You remind me of my monther soooo much, ive been asking myself for years "how do she do it". You never know what you can handle until you've been through it. I think you can overcome any and everything thats comes your way. Need more like you in the world! ;)
ReplyDeleteElizabeth, I love reading your material. You are so real. The feelings that you have are normal and you will make it.
ReplyDeleteHi Liz, I read ur blogs all the time, but i never comment. But I really feel you on this one. I was in a relationship with this chick who always needed something, and really didnt pull her share of the weight. I could work the night shift and still come in and clean. Now why in da hell was I cleaning if I am at work all day? She always had an excuse on why she couldn't get it done. My thing is, it takes two and I feel that the people we are with should bend over backwards to make us happy and make the place into a home. Keep your head up. I hope it gets better for you. Damn
ReplyDeleteLizz man, you are on point. But, keep pushing. When you've had enough, you'll do what needs to be done.
ReplyDeleteYou are right. You are supposed to be just where you are. Something grand is going to come your way. Also remember that sometime after you've talked and talked all you can do is lead by example. I hope things work well for ya.